friends

why a friend of mine is always like two face? at the first they're fine to be my place to share. but the end the dont want to be like that anymore. since it happen to me, i always keep everything by myself. and i just dont want to be alone anymore. i always sad when i was alone. every moment just occured in my head. moment that i dont want to remember. being alone for almost 3 years was so fucked up. when none care of you even your family. when everyone treat you like a trash, and none wants you in their life. and when none admit and accept you just because youre fat. and when they're ashamed if you near them. and when i tried to believe someone in my life, my friends. then he become a backstabber. since it happen to me, i dont believe anyone. why none could accept and admit me the way i am? until i heard about one quote 'dont make a deal with a fat guy, you'll regret it'. do i looks so bad?

love and friends

Do you believe in true love, true friends? can you tell me what it is. i want to know. and are they exist?